1-I LOVE That you love your rocking Motor Cycle
2-I LOVE how cute you are in your church clothes
3-I LOVE that you are obsessed with driving the truck
4-I LOVE how much fun we have playing together
5-I LOVE how you adore animals
XoXo-Mama Bear
August 31, 2012
August's Sunday Shenanigans
1-I LOVE That you love your rocking Motor Cycle
2-I LOVE how cute you are in your church clothes
3-I LOVE that you are obsessed with driving the truck
4-I LOVE how much fun we have playing together
5-I LOVE how you adore animals
XoXo-Mama Bear
August 21, 2012
The Big Un-Friending!!
I really wanted to blog about a certain person. But I don't want to sound like a brat. But I will say this....I am so hurt by people's actions.
As of lately or rather this entire year has been........ I think I can say by far the worst I have ever had. And if you know me, and the craptastic things that I have endured in my life...this is really saying a lot.
It started with my best friend betraying me in the worst sort of way. And that has cut me down to nothing. I feel like the ugliest piece of crap. (and being referred to as a Him three times this week hasn't helped any)
And so over the last few months my self esteem has completely left me. I have never felt so alone in my life. And yet my sweet little Baby Bear has kept me afloat somehow.
I have really tried to keep myself going and work hard at my Scentsy Business. The other day I posted something I thought was funny on my FaceBook page.
so this wasn't inappropriate. But sometimes I don't have a filter, and you know that little voice that stops you from saying stupid things? Yah I don't have one. Mine got lost in the mail or something.
But when I said that car looked like a ditsy girl with an 80's side ponytail Papa Bear busted out laughing. I was pretty pleased with myself that I actually came up with something funny all by me onesies. So I hurried and snapped a photo before we passed the car. I was so dang pleased with myself that posted it on facebook hoping my friends would see it and fall down on the ground laughing in hysterical fits. Okay so that is a little much. I was maybe hoping one person might snort while drinking some milk and the milk would run out their nose. (It's never happened to me, but a certain person I refer to as k.k. has experienced it on a few occasions. lol) And I was hoping that maybe a few people might get a little giggle out of it.
Well it caused problems. One person said one thing, and another person said another.....and soon people were fighting on the thread. When I woke up the next morning Papa Bear said quite the controversy was going on over that picture. What is left of my heart sank to the bottom of my skeletal stomach, fell through my pelvis, slid down my leg, pooled in my heel, dribbled down and settled in my big toe. I started having fears of the whole Nurse-In fiasco.
Luckily it wasn't nearly that bad. But what hurt is that people I consider friends were attacking each other. 2 of the 3 knew each other. And it was like no one cared that they were verbally going off on someone I cared about. On my FB page. The argument happened between two people. And then someone really respect, and think highly of chimed in and told everyone to chill the heck out. I was grateful they had done so. I added my two bits of info at the end...Here is what I said:
Holy Crap People! I was merely saying the car looks like it has a ditsy (sp?) 80's side ponytail. I don't like the look of the car, and know nothing about it's actual performance. I DON'T CAR ABOUT THE CAR! Please people take into account who the people are to me you are arguing with. And please no one else comment on this. I took the picture merely as a ha ha moment and that is all.
That thank goodness ended the drama. Or so I had thought. FB notified me that friend A was talking to friend B. Dread instantly filled me. As I clicked on the thread I saw friend A and B going on about what had happened. I was devastated and surprised that friend A would sink to that level. I left a simple comment. "You know I can see this Right?!" Well I got unfriended over the whole thing. I am so confused. I don't understand. How is it that all of this crap drama happened from one little picture that was supposed to be silly and make people laugh?
I have to say my heart and soul cannot take much more. I know this is a mild thing. But when it is added to the BAJILLION other things that have happened to me as of lately..... just feel like I keep getting crushed over and over and over. I feel like the fat kid being teased at school and everyone is throwing rocks at me. When you feel like your friends really aren't your friends...they just tolerate you because of your husband.....treat you like they are superior....or just treat you badly. It is really painful when you lose one who you had held pretty high on a pedestal.
Lately I can feel myself turning cold towards everything....or rather just being a real Bitch. I am sorry friends. I am not in the greatest of places.
My heart aches. I am sooo over this year, and this life!
XoXo-Mama Bear
As of lately or rather this entire year has been........ I think I can say by far the worst I have ever had. And if you know me, and the craptastic things that I have endured in my life...this is really saying a lot.
It started with my best friend betraying me in the worst sort of way. And that has cut me down to nothing. I feel like the ugliest piece of crap. (and being referred to as a Him three times this week hasn't helped any)
And so over the last few months my self esteem has completely left me. I have never felt so alone in my life. And yet my sweet little Baby Bear has kept me afloat somehow.
I have really tried to keep myself going and work hard at my Scentsy Business. The other day I posted something I thought was funny on my FaceBook page.
This is the exact picture I posted. And here is the exact thing I said to go with the picture:
are you ready for it?
A car with an 80's side ponytail! Lol
I thought it was insanely funny. But things that I find funny......a lot of other people....don't.
But when I said that car looked like a ditsy girl with an 80's side ponytail Papa Bear busted out laughing. I was pretty pleased with myself that I actually came up with something funny all by me onesies. So I hurried and snapped a photo before we passed the car. I was so dang pleased with myself that posted it on facebook hoping my friends would see it and fall down on the ground laughing in hysterical fits. Okay so that is a little much. I was maybe hoping one person might snort while drinking some milk and the milk would run out their nose. (It's never happened to me, but a certain person I refer to as k.k. has experienced it on a few occasions. lol) And I was hoping that maybe a few people might get a little giggle out of it.
Well it caused problems. One person said one thing, and another person said another.....and soon people were fighting on the thread. When I woke up the next morning Papa Bear said quite the controversy was going on over that picture. What is left of my heart sank to the bottom of my skeletal stomach, fell through my pelvis, slid down my leg, pooled in my heel, dribbled down and settled in my big toe. I started having fears of the whole Nurse-In fiasco.
Luckily it wasn't nearly that bad. But what hurt is that people I consider friends were attacking each other. 2 of the 3 knew each other. And it was like no one cared that they were verbally going off on someone I cared about. On my FB page. The argument happened between two people. And then someone really respect, and think highly of chimed in and told everyone to chill the heck out. I was grateful they had done so. I added my two bits of info at the end...Here is what I said:
Holy Crap People! I was merely saying the car looks like it has a ditsy (sp?) 80's side ponytail. I don't like the look of the car, and know nothing about it's actual performance. I DON'T CAR ABOUT THE CAR! Please people take into account who the people are to me you are arguing with. And please no one else comment on this. I took the picture merely as a ha ha moment and that is all.
That thank goodness ended the drama. Or so I had thought. FB notified me that friend A was talking to friend B. Dread instantly filled me. As I clicked on the thread I saw friend A and B going on about what had happened. I was devastated and surprised that friend A would sink to that level. I left a simple comment. "You know I can see this Right?!" Well I got unfriended over the whole thing. I am so confused. I don't understand. How is it that all of this crap drama happened from one little picture that was supposed to be silly and make people laugh?
I have to say my heart and soul cannot take much more. I know this is a mild thing. But when it is added to the BAJILLION other things that have happened to me as of lately..... just feel like I keep getting crushed over and over and over. I feel like the fat kid being teased at school and everyone is throwing rocks at me. When you feel like your friends really aren't your friends...they just tolerate you because of your husband.....treat you like they are superior....or just treat you badly. It is really painful when you lose one who you had held pretty high on a pedestal.
Lately I can feel myself turning cold towards everything....or rather just being a real Bitch. I am sorry friends. I am not in the greatest of places.
My heart aches. I am sooo over this year, and this life!
XoXo-Mama Bear
August 7, 2012
Bobbing Along!!
Bobbing along on the bottom of the beautiful briny sea!
Oh what a funk I am in! I have been keeping busy, and trying to survive life in general. I recently returned from 4 days in Vegas without my boys. Let me tell you seeing babies everywhere while missing your own is a killer. I really had to restrain myself a few times from snatching up someones baby a few times just so I could give them hugs!! ;-/
But 4 days away to just relax a little was fun. I went to the Scentsy Convention. It was pretty fun. And a lot bigger than I thought it would be. It was wild to think that all 11,000 people were Scentsy consultants. I got a lot of free stuff like a free purse, jewelry, clutch, and accessories from the new line Scentsy just launched called Grace Adele. Free items from the new fall/winter line for Scentsy, and of course free Velata!! I also had about $120 saved to shop in the Scentsy store and get some awesome stuff for my business. I helped someone out and got a free rolling bag, and the best part of the trip........the first night out I took myself on a hot date to see Phantom of the Opera! It was so amazing!!! The only bad part was I decided to wear silky nylons, and they kept schooching down lol, I was an idiot and wore heels, and the cab ride cost $30 to go 1.8 miles!! ouch!!
I bought a tiny souvenir pin, and a picture. I got all dressed up, and had the best night out. I did have someone call me a dike, but I was having such a great time I didn't care what their problem was. The music was amazing, the stage awesome, and it was so magical!! I sat in Orchestra seating, and unfortunately had the largest two people ever in front of me that blocked out the stage...but it's all good. It was still a magical experience for me.
I wanted to be able to do all the things I wanted so, I didn't go out to eat. If I could have cut it out completely I would have. But I made Oatmeal with the coffee maker, and snacked on fruit bars all week. When I met my director she took a few of us out for lunch one day and I got to eat at P.F.Changs for the 1st. Time. It was really yummy!!
The girls I was staying with had a real problem with me at the end. I wasn't going out to party with them and play on the strip. I wasn't going out to eat with them, and wasn't hanging out with them. So they got a little nasty with me, and wouldn't let me sit with them at the Colbie Callaitt concert. Let me tell you my whole world was crushed! lol NOT! I went to Vegas with the sole intention of relaxing. I desperately needed some me time, recharge my batteries, and just have a calm couple of days. I have been to Vegas a dozen times. It is not new and exciting to me. I have seen a lot of the sites. I didn't care to go out sight seeing. I wanted to just relax, sleep, and do things that I wanted to do. Plus I do enough babysitting during my everyday life....I don't care to do it when I am on MY vacation. And 3 of them were all part of the same team, I am not on their team. I didn't want to intrude on their fun friend time. I would just be the third wheel the entire time. So I was fine relaxing in the hotel room, taking a hot bath, resting, and doing whole bunches of nothing. Apparently that rubbed them the wrong way. Oh well. They were all super young and I just am so sick of caring what other people think.
But all in all it was a good trip. I didn't get near enough training as I had wanted, but it's all good.
So lately I have been doing a lot of thinking. I am not happy at all, and am really miserable. I can tell that my stress and anxiety with life is also affecting baby bear. So I have really been putting in the effort to try and make myself happier. I am not quite sure how to do that yet. But it is a work in progress.
Well that is all for now.
XoXo-Mama Bear!
Oh what a funk I am in! I have been keeping busy, and trying to survive life in general. I recently returned from 4 days in Vegas without my boys. Let me tell you seeing babies everywhere while missing your own is a killer. I really had to restrain myself a few times from snatching up someones baby a few times just so I could give them hugs!! ;-/
But 4 days away to just relax a little was fun. I went to the Scentsy Convention. It was pretty fun. And a lot bigger than I thought it would be. It was wild to think that all 11,000 people were Scentsy consultants. I got a lot of free stuff like a free purse, jewelry, clutch, and accessories from the new line Scentsy just launched called Grace Adele. Free items from the new fall/winter line for Scentsy, and of course free Velata!! I also had about $120 saved to shop in the Scentsy store and get some awesome stuff for my business. I helped someone out and got a free rolling bag, and the best part of the trip........the first night out I took myself on a hot date to see Phantom of the Opera! It was so amazing!!! The only bad part was I decided to wear silky nylons, and they kept schooching down lol, I was an idiot and wore heels, and the cab ride cost $30 to go 1.8 miles!! ouch!!
I bought a tiny souvenir pin, and a picture. I got all dressed up, and had the best night out. I did have someone call me a dike, but I was having such a great time I didn't care what their problem was. The music was amazing, the stage awesome, and it was so magical!! I sat in Orchestra seating, and unfortunately had the largest two people ever in front of me that blocked out the stage...but it's all good. It was still a magical experience for me.
I wanted to be able to do all the things I wanted so, I didn't go out to eat. If I could have cut it out completely I would have. But I made Oatmeal with the coffee maker, and snacked on fruit bars all week. When I met my director she took a few of us out for lunch one day and I got to eat at P.F.Changs for the 1st. Time. It was really yummy!!
The girls I was staying with had a real problem with me at the end. I wasn't going out to party with them and play on the strip. I wasn't going out to eat with them, and wasn't hanging out with them. So they got a little nasty with me, and wouldn't let me sit with them at the Colbie Callaitt concert. Let me tell you my whole world was crushed! lol NOT! I went to Vegas with the sole intention of relaxing. I desperately needed some me time, recharge my batteries, and just have a calm couple of days. I have been to Vegas a dozen times. It is not new and exciting to me. I have seen a lot of the sites. I didn't care to go out sight seeing. I wanted to just relax, sleep, and do things that I wanted to do. Plus I do enough babysitting during my everyday life....I don't care to do it when I am on MY vacation. And 3 of them were all part of the same team, I am not on their team. I didn't want to intrude on their fun friend time. I would just be the third wheel the entire time. So I was fine relaxing in the hotel room, taking a hot bath, resting, and doing whole bunches of nothing. Apparently that rubbed them the wrong way. Oh well. They were all super young and I just am so sick of caring what other people think.
But all in all it was a good trip. I didn't get near enough training as I had wanted, but it's all good.
So lately I have been doing a lot of thinking. I am not happy at all, and am really miserable. I can tell that my stress and anxiety with life is also affecting baby bear. So I have really been putting in the effort to try and make myself happier. I am not quite sure how to do that yet. But it is a work in progress.
Well that is all for now.
XoXo-Mama Bear!
July 31, 2012
July's Sunday Shenanigans
1-I LOVE That I got to take you to see the fireworks for the 1st. time
2-I LOVE taking you to the beach
3-I LOVE how you have to have one of your Hot Wheels in your hand to be able to go to sleep
4-I LOVE that you are saying Mama more often
5-I'll LOVE you Forever, I'll Like you for Always, as long as I'm living my Baby you'll be.
XoXo-Mama Bear
June 30, 2012
June's Sunday Shenanigans
1-I LOVE watching you play and explore at the park2-I LOVE that you find so much joy playing in your sensory box full of rice
3-I LOVE that you have started to copy me by rubbing your hands together when I put on lotion, or rubbing your hair when I am brushing mine, and stomping your right foot like I do when I am roaring like a monster
4-I LOVE that you eating Blueberry muffins
5-I LOVE that you come with me to sell Scentsy and you play well with the other kids!
XoXo-Mama Bear
June 22, 2012
Workin Hard for a livin!
Things have been pretty ho hum around here. This week has been insanely slow as far as Scentsy sales go. And it seems to be the week for everyone to stand me up, or cancel on me. I do have to say that driving for an hour just to have someone stand me up is slightly irritating. But not much I can do about it I guess.
Baby Bear has been getting a lot taller. He is slowly growing, which is good. He is 17 months and 17 lbs. It is frustrating when I make his a great meal and he just flat out won't eat it. (like this morning) When we put him on this high fat/calorie diet I didn't want to do it as I was afraid he would soon learn to only like sweet tasting things. Everyone assured me that no he will be just fine and it won't be a big deal. Well what do you know.......he only wants the sweeter tasting things. It is hard finding ways to get him to eat the good for him things. But I do have to admit that I am getting pretty good at inventing little things for him to eat. lol
I am getting soooo excited about my trip next month to Vegas. I am dreading leaving Baby Bear for a few days. But I am so excited to do something for ME! I will also be taking myself on a hot date to see Phantom of the Opera. I have no idea how I will get the money for the ticket. But have been dying to go since I was in 7th grade and now I have the opportunity and I have to make it happen. I have been waiting for years for Papa Bear to take me and it isn't going to happen so I need to make this happen myself or it will never happen as it is closing September 2nd. I have even been trying to sell some of my belongings to make this happen. I am trying to stay positive about it. This IS going to happen. lol
I will be staying in a hotel with a bunch of people I do not know so that will be interesting. And I only sort of know 1 person going. But I have done things before where I don't even know one person and I still take myself. So this is still going to happen for me. And hey if it's just me then I don't have to work around anyone else's schedule and can do and see what I want. ;0D If I want to go back to the room and nap then I will, or If I need to go to the mall in Ceasers palace then so be it. ha ha ha But I am going to be missing my baby bear an awful lot. I don't know how I am going to stay away from him for so long. ;0(
I feel I have been slowly taking the house back. It got a little out of control here for a bit. But I am taking it back from the bog of eternal stench. lol I am also slowly coming out of the funk I have been in.
Not much else is going on. But things are getting better. Baby Bear keeps me super busy. He found a movie that he is in love with. It is pretty cute. Rio now plays in our home. And I constantly have the music in my head. Baby Bear loves music. I mean he adores it!!! So when we saw this he instantly fell in love with it. And the fact that it has a bunch of flashy bright colors helps a lot as well. lol
Well that is all for now. But here are a few fun pictures for ya.
XoXo-Mama Bear
acrobatic bears
Our cute church outfit
waving at doggies
waving at doggies
what chocolate Mama?
My little man!
vroom vroom
Papa took us to the zoo
Helping Mama sell Scentsy
Papas trucks!
my little Hamburgler
We discovered the goodness of Swedish fish
Baby Bear has been getting a lot taller. He is slowly growing, which is good. He is 17 months and 17 lbs. It is frustrating when I make his a great meal and he just flat out won't eat it. (like this morning) When we put him on this high fat/calorie diet I didn't want to do it as I was afraid he would soon learn to only like sweet tasting things. Everyone assured me that no he will be just fine and it won't be a big deal. Well what do you know.......he only wants the sweeter tasting things. It is hard finding ways to get him to eat the good for him things. But I do have to admit that I am getting pretty good at inventing little things for him to eat. lol
I am getting soooo excited about my trip next month to Vegas. I am dreading leaving Baby Bear for a few days. But I am so excited to do something for ME! I will also be taking myself on a hot date to see Phantom of the Opera. I have no idea how I will get the money for the ticket. But have been dying to go since I was in 7th grade and now I have the opportunity and I have to make it happen. I have been waiting for years for Papa Bear to take me and it isn't going to happen so I need to make this happen myself or it will never happen as it is closing September 2nd. I have even been trying to sell some of my belongings to make this happen. I am trying to stay positive about it. This IS going to happen. lol
I will be staying in a hotel with a bunch of people I do not know so that will be interesting. And I only sort of know 1 person going. But I have done things before where I don't even know one person and I still take myself. So this is still going to happen for me. And hey if it's just me then I don't have to work around anyone else's schedule and can do and see what I want. ;0D If I want to go back to the room and nap then I will, or If I need to go to the mall in Ceasers palace then so be it. ha ha ha But I am going to be missing my baby bear an awful lot. I don't know how I am going to stay away from him for so long. ;0(
I feel I have been slowly taking the house back. It got a little out of control here for a bit. But I am taking it back from the bog of eternal stench. lol I am also slowly coming out of the funk I have been in.
Not much else is going on. But things are getting better. Baby Bear keeps me super busy. He found a movie that he is in love with. It is pretty cute. Rio now plays in our home. And I constantly have the music in my head. Baby Bear loves music. I mean he adores it!!! So when we saw this he instantly fell in love with it. And the fact that it has a bunch of flashy bright colors helps a lot as well. lol
Well that is all for now. But here are a few fun pictures for ya.
XoXo-Mama Bear
acrobatic bears
Our cute church outfit
waving at doggies
waving at doggies
what chocolate Mama?
My little man!
vroom vroom
Papa took us to the zoo
Helping Mama sell Scentsy
Papas trucks!
my little Hamburgler
We discovered the goodness of Swedish fishJune 10, 2012
Summer has arrived
Summer has for sure arrived in Southern California. It's been nice and warm, and busy around here.
The chaos has calmed down a tad since Papa got back from training. He has let me have a few nights off and they were very much needed. I feel like I am starting to come out of that zombie foggy haze I felt I was in. I am still tired but not nearly as much.
I have been selling Scentsy like crazy!! I am working as hard as I can trying to get my name out into the community. It takes time to advertise, but I think it is slowly paying off. Baby Bear is my little Scentsy mascot. He comes with me everywhere and he helps Mama sell. lol He is such a good trooper. He comes with me on all day trips getting in and out of the car. Loading and unloading the Scentsy. And he doesn't really complain.
Baby Bear did throw his first temper tantrum the other day. Yah it was super awesome. We had been standing in line at the bank for ages. I had to take care of something in my business account and it couldn't wait. Finally we were the next in line....but Baby Bear had enough. He started fussing eve though I had let him play with another little boy at the bank. He wanted all the pens on the counter and was not happy that Mama wouldn't allow him to take them. lol Poor little guy. Then I let him press the buttons on the credit card machine next to us and he loved that it made a beeping sound. But he was still being fussy and loud. Then when it was time to go and we had to give back the pen that was attached to the credit car machine it turned out to be the end of the world! He was super angry with his Mama. He fussed really loud as I was trying to hurry out of the store. His attitude wasn't improving much and it was only 11 a.m. and I still had a full day ahead. So I took care of a few things and then called Papa around 1:30 and Papa took the bear for me so I could finish out my day without dragging a mad screaming baby around. Poor Papa couldn't accomplish anything with him so he went home from work. lol
This last week I had my first Scentsy party hosted by a friend. It was a girls night out and had other vendors there like 31 bags, Pampered Chef, and ME!!!!! I had built a huge display and it turned out really nice. I was pretty happy with it. It held all the Scentsy Bars so I had more room to display the warmers as well. It looked pretty nice. ;0) It took over an hour to set it all up, and about an hour to take it all down and pack it up. I need to get better at that. But for it being my first time setting it all up It wasn't so bad. Papa had agreed to come home around 2-2:30 so I could get the car loaded and drive to my friends. But he never came home. So I took Baby Bear with me to the party and Papa was to meet me there before the party and pick the bear up. Well 2 hours into the party he still hadn't showed. at 7p.m. he said he was cleaning up trying to get off work. But when I left the party at 11p.m. Papa still hadn't showed. I felt bad because I wasn't prepared to have Baby Bear with me that long so he hadn't really eaten. I gave him some of the snacks and he like that but he didn't have a nap or a substantial meal which resulted in him being grumpy and fussy the whole night. Luckily he had his girlfriend P to play with. But he would still get sick of everything and come to me fussy and sad. But he was a real trooper. Once we got the car all packed up and ready to go we hadn't even been in the car 5 minutes and that little cutie was passed out cold. lol So sweet! He is really well behaved.
Friday Night when I got home late from my day of selling Scentsy Papa and Baby Bear had made spaghetti. Luckily they had done so as around 7p.m. the power dimmed in the whole house and some of the lights wouldn't even turn on. Then around 10p.m. it flickered, I heard an explosion outside like a gunshot and then the power went out completely. ughhh I took baby bear out of his dark room and cracked open one of Papa's military Chem lights that last like 20 hours or something and are insanely bright, And stuck the bear in bed with Papa. I still hadn't pumped because with the power running so low my pump wouldn't turn on. My computer couldn't even charge we had such little power. So I grabbed my little tiny pump and went to the car around midnight when I figured the power wasn't going to come back on. Ohhhh and I had such a busy day I hadn't pumped yet so I was in PAIN!! I sat in the car for an hour and pumped using the car jack. lol Oh the things I do for my Baby Bear!! lol I called the power company to get a guesstimate of what time it might get turned back on and they said 4 a.m. Awesome. I finished pumping, went back in the house and lit the kerosene lamps around the house so we would have light for the night. At 10:30 a.m. the next day the power finally came back on. lol
I think I have made up my mind to stop pumping if I can. I am soooooo sick of doing it. I mean I have been doing this for 16 months straight. I hate it. I know it is for an awesome little guy and I have been fortunate enough to feed 2 other babies with it. But I am over it!!! Each time I pump I have to do it for an hour because I produce soooo stinking much! (on average 54 oz) I just feel bad that I don't want to do it and am scared what it will do to my little man. He barely weighs 17lbs. now. So I am scared he will be mad he isn't getting Mama's milk. IDK what to do, I just know I am super tired and over it.
Well that is all for now. I had the house to myself today and wrote this while I took a small break from cleaning. lol Talk to you all soon
XoXo-Mama Bear
The chaos has calmed down a tad since Papa got back from training. He has let me have a few nights off and they were very much needed. I feel like I am starting to come out of that zombie foggy haze I felt I was in. I am still tired but not nearly as much.
I have been selling Scentsy like crazy!! I am working as hard as I can trying to get my name out into the community. It takes time to advertise, but I think it is slowly paying off. Baby Bear is my little Scentsy mascot. He comes with me everywhere and he helps Mama sell. lol He is such a good trooper. He comes with me on all day trips getting in and out of the car. Loading and unloading the Scentsy. And he doesn't really complain.
Baby Bear did throw his first temper tantrum the other day. Yah it was super awesome. We had been standing in line at the bank for ages. I had to take care of something in my business account and it couldn't wait. Finally we were the next in line....but Baby Bear had enough. He started fussing eve though I had let him play with another little boy at the bank. He wanted all the pens on the counter and was not happy that Mama wouldn't allow him to take them. lol Poor little guy. Then I let him press the buttons on the credit card machine next to us and he loved that it made a beeping sound. But he was still being fussy and loud. Then when it was time to go and we had to give back the pen that was attached to the credit car machine it turned out to be the end of the world! He was super angry with his Mama. He fussed really loud as I was trying to hurry out of the store. His attitude wasn't improving much and it was only 11 a.m. and I still had a full day ahead. So I took care of a few things and then called Papa around 1:30 and Papa took the bear for me so I could finish out my day without dragging a mad screaming baby around. Poor Papa couldn't accomplish anything with him so he went home from work. lol
This last week I had my first Scentsy party hosted by a friend. It was a girls night out and had other vendors there like 31 bags, Pampered Chef, and ME!!!!! I had built a huge display and it turned out really nice. I was pretty happy with it. It held all the Scentsy Bars so I had more room to display the warmers as well. It looked pretty nice. ;0) It took over an hour to set it all up, and about an hour to take it all down and pack it up. I need to get better at that. But for it being my first time setting it all up It wasn't so bad. Papa had agreed to come home around 2-2:30 so I could get the car loaded and drive to my friends. But he never came home. So I took Baby Bear with me to the party and Papa was to meet me there before the party and pick the bear up. Well 2 hours into the party he still hadn't showed. at 7p.m. he said he was cleaning up trying to get off work. But when I left the party at 11p.m. Papa still hadn't showed. I felt bad because I wasn't prepared to have Baby Bear with me that long so he hadn't really eaten. I gave him some of the snacks and he like that but he didn't have a nap or a substantial meal which resulted in him being grumpy and fussy the whole night. Luckily he had his girlfriend P to play with. But he would still get sick of everything and come to me fussy and sad. But he was a real trooper. Once we got the car all packed up and ready to go we hadn't even been in the car 5 minutes and that little cutie was passed out cold. lol So sweet! He is really well behaved.
Friday Night when I got home late from my day of selling Scentsy Papa and Baby Bear had made spaghetti. Luckily they had done so as around 7p.m. the power dimmed in the whole house and some of the lights wouldn't even turn on. Then around 10p.m. it flickered, I heard an explosion outside like a gunshot and then the power went out completely. ughhh I took baby bear out of his dark room and cracked open one of Papa's military Chem lights that last like 20 hours or something and are insanely bright, And stuck the bear in bed with Papa. I still hadn't pumped because with the power running so low my pump wouldn't turn on. My computer couldn't even charge we had such little power. So I grabbed my little tiny pump and went to the car around midnight when I figured the power wasn't going to come back on. Ohhhh and I had such a busy day I hadn't pumped yet so I was in PAIN!! I sat in the car for an hour and pumped using the car jack. lol Oh the things I do for my Baby Bear!! lol I called the power company to get a guesstimate of what time it might get turned back on and they said 4 a.m. Awesome. I finished pumping, went back in the house and lit the kerosene lamps around the house so we would have light for the night. At 10:30 a.m. the next day the power finally came back on. lol
I think I have made up my mind to stop pumping if I can. I am soooooo sick of doing it. I mean I have been doing this for 16 months straight. I hate it. I know it is for an awesome little guy and I have been fortunate enough to feed 2 other babies with it. But I am over it!!! Each time I pump I have to do it for an hour because I produce soooo stinking much! (on average 54 oz) I just feel bad that I don't want to do it and am scared what it will do to my little man. He barely weighs 17lbs. now. So I am scared he will be mad he isn't getting Mama's milk. IDK what to do, I just know I am super tired and over it.
Well that is all for now. I had the house to myself today and wrote this while I took a small break from cleaning. lol Talk to you all soon
XoXo-Mama Bear
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